I mentioned that I was happy to see another black chick at this poetry reading I attended a few weeks ago, and my roommate’s friend was like, “That’s a thing? Why does that even matter?”
This chick looked so fucking concerned and I explained to her that it is comforting not to be the only black chick white spaces.
She’s like, “Oh, interesting.”
Mousey lil Lulu Lemon ass Canadian bitty.
it is intimidating as fuck to be the only poc at any function esp now that i don’t speak the native tongue
and it’s like my host family (white rich privileged) don’t understand how very very uncomfortable it is for me to be in that environment when it becomes obvious that it’s just an exclusive hangout for bored white people (see: scouts, chiros) and it becomes a seriously hostile environment (heteronormative, ableist, ‘ironic’ racism, general disrespect for foreigners while also disregarding the fact that i am also a foreigner just with a less stigmatized ethnic background/privilege of being from america)
so i am not ever sorry when i walk into a room of white people and immediately walk out. sorry not sorry i can smell your elitist ignorant bullshit from across the room and i am not in the mood for it.