had a great talk with my dad and cried
i’m just so tired all the time and v sick of all this orientation freshmen sucking each others’ cocks all the time
i live right outside the lounge in my dorm. and all these stupid 18 year old hipsters about to take intro to philosophy and study films from the vietnam era have brought out the lovechild of the mandolin and guitar and started howling at the fucking wind.
can you smell the wet panties?
and they did a thirty minute long drum circle and chanted and had intense personal talks and snapped a lot after it like a pretentious cow
at fucking midnight
stop it stop it leave the fucking lounge aka my front yard and go fuck uncomfortably into existential oblivion in your own disgusting holes
i am going to be known in the writer’s block as the girl who cries in the afternoon and wanders around in the night making spooky noises and farting.
so orientation is great and freshman are really secure and intelligent and most of all, able to hold a conversation. I didn’t just walk in on a girl crying about being raped in our group seminar after having a loud fight with my boyfriend outside.
on the serious tho, wes had a great alcohol and sexual assault/violence and abuse seminar. and I really appreciated all the support and maturity of the frosh year.
and another note - I am very over dealing with just graduated high schoolers who are all too emotional and too invested in orientation relationships and can’t deal with scheduling and being punctual. I feel like an old cranky mom but watever I just can not even! afford! this! childish! shit!
- Do not forget Michael Brown
- Do not forget how the media dehumanized him and tried to justify his murder
- Do not forget how peaceful protests were painted as savage riots
- Do not forget police armed with military grade weapons terrorized and arrested black civilians
- Do not forget Darren Wilson being awarded over $200,000 in fundraiser donations for murdering an unarmed black child
- Do not forget that this system was not built to defend us, but to control us
- Do not forget Ferguson
orientation is tomorrow and i’m about to sleep my last night with my mom before she heads back and i’m officially an adult college frosh and i have so much anxiety about orientation and meeting new people and being high on life so people don’t think i’m a depressed downer asshole bumpkin.
the next few days will be exhausting and i’m going to miss fayetteville and genk and taiwan and i hope i just don’t keel over and sob in my little single room.